I was a chapter in her book called ‘LOVE’

I was a chapter in her book called ‘LOVE…’ While she was the title of my Book…

Nan hesru Shanmukh, keluvr preethi inda Shanu antha karudre ina keluvr ina thumba preethi inda Shani antha karithare. Nam swantha ooru Thirthahalli but huttid beldid yala Bengaluru. Helkolo antha interesting character yen alla but nan life ali twist and turns ge yen kammi irlilla. Ista pattu Engineering serkond kasta patti mugsde. Ista idru kasta adru relative bayi muchake kelsake anthu serkole bek alva… hange avr bayi muchso hange kelsa kuda sikthu Techzara ano company ali. Chik vaysinda introvert ada nange jasthi friends irlilla… Idid 2 jana friends… Ivr katta college life ali saldu antha devru nam 3 jana nu onde company kelsake bere hakida.

Nam gang bagge chikdagi helbek andre nim class ali heavy tharle madtha, yalar jothe close agi iruthala ond gang ah gang madya yavdo gang avrde lokdali kaldogiruthe ala ade… ade nam gang. Niv ond observe madidira jana usually helod yen andre like minded people become closer friends antha but actually nim friends ne nodi nim character ge opposite agirthare… Ega nan introvert adare nan friends ibru extroverts, avr hesru Swasthik, Manjunath. Nav mathra avrna thumba preethi inda Swasthika mathe Kullmanja antha ne karitha idid. Nam lokdali nav kaldogidru nam lokdali fun genu korthe irlilla… When there is a gang of 3 usually one will be getting roasted by other two alva… And that bakra was as the name says… correct avne Manja. Nam gang ge Manja onthara financial officer and comedian idange, avn bagge ond incident helbek andre ondsali lecture avnge “nim appa yen madod?” antha keludru, aduke nam Kullmanja “Kelsa” anda classroom ali idavr yala heavy negadidivi, hange yavthu comedy madbek antha comedy madalla papa avn mathadode comedy agi iruthe. Swasthik nam group na Shree Krishna, adare onde ond change yen andre bhagwan Shree Krishna ge 16000 hudgir avr hidne idru but Swasthik 16000 hudgir hinde ivne bidida. Finally graduation day banthu, 4 years ivr madya heng hoythu antha ne goth aglilla. Nan engineering life ali nenp itkolo memory andre nan friends jothe kaldid happy moments mathra antha ankond ide… Nam classmates yala bandu Swasthik, Manju hathra photo theguskothavre but no one took a single picture with me. So that showed me how insignificant my character was in that class… Nan friends na introduce madsake i have stories but avrge nan bage introduce madbek andre there is no story. Avathu Engineering life inda mathra graduate aglilla but also graduated how not to be in college. That’s when I decided to end introvert life.

Work life start aythu… And it was time to change. But at the end of the training period nange realisation agid yen andre nav engineering odidu nan extrovert agbek antha think madid yerdu waste because nan training period ali nan Swasthik, Manju na bittu bere yar hathra nu close agle illa. Life always gives a second chance, and it’s called as tomorrow, ah tomorrow nan life alu turning point. Swasthik and Manju System engineer department ge hakidru, nana application developer department ge hakidru. Mathe ade first year engineering feels yaru ast parichaya illa just stare at strangers and smile. Hinge idre agalla antha nane dhairya madi nan cubicle hathra hode, ali yaro oblu nan system munde kuthavre. Ide olle opportunity mathadake antha ankondu “Excuse me, idu nan system ansuthe” antha helde. Aduke smile kodtha thirugthale… antha ankondre, hinde thirgi melinda kelug nodi “ha, so?” anoda. Thegd ond thalege ond kodana antha anusthu but ivella bari ankoloke mathra chanda ago kelsa alla, so mathe smile kodtha “Myself Shanmukh, New joining nim system ge shift agi swalpa login agbek” ande. Aduke ” It’s not myself, adu I’m agbek, I’m Moksha, you’re in my team. Welcome to Techzara” andlu. Ollage full uritha idru ache mathra smile kodtha “Thankyou Moksha” ande. “Don’t call me Moksha call me Moksha ma’am, nim assignment yala system ali ide, complete it soon. Stop smiling and start working” antha heli hodlu. Sathmele moksha sigutha ilva gothilla but ivl jothe kelsa madudre pakka moksha sigalla antha confirm aythu. Ist agi nan system munde kuthkonde, nan team avr yala negadkond ache bandru, nange yenaythappa? Antha ankotha ide aga “nav usually new joiners na hinge welcome madod, nam company first work day should always be a memorable one” antha helidru. “Nin Shanmukh nan Subrahmanyam, nim team leader. Moksha kuda new employee. She will be working with you” andru nam team leader. Yavthu eh reethi first working day iruthe antha expect madirlilla avr heldange idu long time memory agiruthe until I switch my company antha ankond nange nane negadtha ide. Aga Moksha bandu ” I’m sorry, it was just a prank. Ega official agi introduce madkolana I’m Moksha” antha heludlu. ” “It’s Okay Moksha ma’am” ande. ” No ma’am just Moksha ani” andlu. ” Illa hengadru nan grammar correct madake irthira alva aduke nive nam ma’am just Moksha avre, nice to meet you” ande. Nod madtha smile kotlu. That’s how my first work day started.

Work start agi almost 20 days agtha banthu. Slowly I was getting adjusted to new life. Nanu, Swasthik, Manju college inda nu onde mane ali idvi. Yav topic bandru we could all relate, but Swasthik, Manju mathado office topic nange relate agtha irlilla, I was feeling left out. Nan friends nange avr jokes na convey madake try madtha idru but obbara joke na direct nodi enjoy madaku indirect agi kelaku thumba difference ide… Avr story helbek adre ne negadavru but nange nagu bartha irlilla, nan work life related agi avrge heldaga they couldn’t relate. Eh time ali nange close agid andre adu nan work mathe Moksha, nange gothilde I started spending more time with her. There is always a bad side in a good side too, anthare Moksha na nam group ge introduce madide, Swasthik, Manju bagge already helide obba Shree Krishna inobba olle comedian aduke Moksha avrge close adlu, mathe introvert feel barake start aythu. No matter how much I try to be extrovert deep inside I will only be introvert antha artha aythu.

Work start agi almost 6 months agogide adare everyday was like same day, time Loop ali idange ithu. Nan life bari Mane, office, work, mane iste agogithu. Kullmanja ge inond hesru Kalmanja antha, yak andre yavaglu yargu gothilde ironge yala madironu, eh sathi kuda namge helde avn committed agine 4 months aythu anda… nang bidi Swasthik avn teammate aginu idea irlilla. Ina nam Swasthik Moksha ge line haktha idane antha mathe helbek antha illa ansuthe. 3 idiots ali helid mathra 100 ge 100% nijja ‘Dost Fail Ho Jaye Toh Dukh Hota Hai.. Lekin Dost First Aa Jaye Toh Zyada Dukh Hota Hai’ ikade avr life Mr & Mrs Ramachari film thara idre nan life olle black and white Lucia film idange ithu. Yenadru life ali change beku antha ankotha irovaga Subrahmanyam sir bandu night shift madake ready na antha kelidru. Nangu madak yen kelsa irlilla atleast it’s a change antha ankond accept madide. Ilindane nan life nijwada change nodid, I don’t know if this decision was my best decision or worst one.

Night shift na first day. Avath heavy rain ithu. Office reach agbek adre late agithu, login adaga system ge ond mail already bandithu. Yardu antha check madaga it was from Alisha from Addison group. Yenu antha check madidaga already scheduled meeting time agogide. Nan modulne foreign client I was late for the first meeting itself, Subrahmanyam sir cabin ali idru hogi agid helde avaga avru smile kodtha”Ayyo, yak tension meeting reschedule agide, office server down ide aduke mathe mail bandilla. Chill” andru. Nange Subrahmanyam bagge yenu gothirlilla avath first time we spoke for that long, actually avru Chennai avru but avr Kannada mathadod nodudre yargu kand hidyoke agalla, avr Preethi madid hudgi Kannadati anthe avlna impress madake Sir Kannada kalthid anthe, love yen yen yala madsuthe antha nagu banthu. Hinge share madtha idaga nanu nan life bagge helkonde introvert life… idid friends kuda committed agavre full life ah boaring antha aga sir helid onde mathu “You will get what you deserve” andru, avaga yen artha aglilla ade time ge server seri hoythu. Scheduled meeting na attend madudvi, Alisha antha ankondaga yaro bili jirale ankond ide nodudre India davlu, inu kushi vichara yen andre Karnataka davlu. Avlna nodid thakshana impress agode. Ond angle ali Shilpa Shetty thara kantha idlu. Avath idi meeting yen ithu antha ne gothilla avl mathadtha idre olle song heldange ithu. Meeting aythu antha Subrahmanyam sir “Shanmukh do you have any doubts?” antha keldagle goth agid. Subrahmanyam sir last ge ” Nodu olle project sikide. Ninge full responsibility kodtha idini. This is you’re first individual project” andru. ” Thanks for trusting me sir. It’s my first individual project and I’m excited to do it. Nan nana 100% kodthini sir”ande, idella sumne ast olle client na daily nodake siguthe andre yar bidthare heli. So nam life alu deepavali baro time banthu.

Nan yavduna lonely antha feel madtha ide ega adune enjoy madake start madide. Nan daily ega bari Alisha na meet madake hogtha ide. Nan Alisha na yavthu direct agi nodilla but yake gothilla I started getting close to her… nan life ali agid yalanu share madake start madide, maybe ah point ali I had no one to share ansuthe, the one person who I felt close was her. Nam project develop adange nam friendship kuda develop agoke start aythu. Alisha na ega work mathra alla ega WhatsApp, Instagram ali kuda follow up madtha ide. Nange avl mele idid yenu antha ne artha agilla, avl yaradru hudgan bagge heldaga insecure agod even though we were just friends. Ah hudga nan agirbarda antha anustha ithu. Nan day start agid kuda avl message inda end agtha idid kuda zoom meeting inda. It was already 6 months. Eh six month heng hoythu antha ne gothirlilla. Ide time ge Subrahmanyam sir bandu “Shanmukh today we have a client meeting, they want to know the progress” andru. ” No issue sir, project almost end stage ali ide. Testing kuda agide already” ande. Aduke avru “Good good, I’m busy with other meetings, I hope you will take care”antha heli address kotti hodru. Ili vargu nan project bagge Alisha hathra mathra mathadid I was a little nervous. Anthu hode meet madake. There was a surprise… Alisha India ge band idlu, I was so surprised. Yavaglu online ali nodid nange first time reality ali nodtha ide, yala movie ali hogi hug madana ano feel but adella agutha illa just formal handshake. Avlge heng feel ithu gothilla but online kintha offline ali thumba Chenag kantha idlu… Actually she is far better than Shilpa Shetty ansuthu. Formal agi mathadbeka informal agi mathadbeka yen idea nu illa. Konegu mathadusthe “Online kintha offline ali thumba chenag kanthiya” antha. Aduke smile kodtha ” Hawda, thanks” andlu. “Yen India ge sudden visit? Helle illa. Heludre prepare agirtha ide” antha kelde. Avlu” Sudden plan yen alla ninna nodbek antha ne bandid, prepare agake yenuke yen propose ah madtha ide?”antha negadudlu. ” Nin ready idre Nan propose madake ready” ande. Aduke shock ali look kotlu. ” Chill, nan helid project proposal” antha helide. ” Online ali mathra alla offline alu humour chenag ide” andlu. Project bagge mathadudvi. Hogbek adre “Nan yavdrali better antha helalva?” Antha kelde. Aduke ” Think madi helthini” andu alinda hodlu. The only person I’m excited to share is her but this time the topic is about her… Yarig helanna?

Sanje avl call banthu, meet admele call receive mado kushi ne bere. We spoke about all the details we did in our meeting. But yavdo ond point ali we both understood we came to meet as friends but while leaving we went back as couples. One thing which I enjoyed the most was working and now I was working to see my loved one happy. Avl India ali idid ast Dina nu daily meet madidini. Each day was special and each day felt new… Yav life loop ali ide antha anustha itho… Now I wanted that loop to never end. I wished to see her daily and felt special each day I saw her. Nam project kuda complete aythu. Documentation yala aythu it was her last day in India. One of the hardest feeling, eh project sigbek adre yest kushi agitho eh project agbek adre adru kintha jasthi bejar agtha ithu. Even though I did the entire application… I was hoping to see lots of bugs in my app. Konegu avl German ge vapas hogo time bande bidthu. Avlna Ulsoor Lake hathra karkond hode, boat Ali avlna yest hathra agutho ast hathra sunset hathra karkond hode, it started raining “Ili vargu yesto Sunset, Sunrise nodidini… But today I want to miss today’s sunset and watch you. Yak andre ivath inda I want to watch all the sunset and all the sunrise only with you. I love you” antha helde. She nodded and accepted… We kissed.

Project mugithu I tried contacting Alisha. All I Heard was a busy tone. Ond dina kalde 2 Dina kalde amele 3 ne dina avle call madi let’s be friends andlu. Heng agbeda onde sali mans nuchi noor aythu. I couldn’t even respond, I disconnected the call and texted her ‘I can’t be a friend again… I can never see you like that again. Yavathu nange call madbeda, bye.’ yav situation ali ide andre yak hange andlu antha kelaku mans barlilla. Nang committed agide break up agide antha nu yargu gothilla. Nan life ali deepavli banthu but deepavali olle weekend hange yavaga banthu yavag hoythu antha yochne madoastrali band hogithu. Alisha tried calling and texting me again… adare ahankara, ego yel hoguthe heli… I ignored her. Avl nana bittu 3 months aythu but still move on agthini agthini antha anodrale idini. Nange nan life felt like falling apart… Friends idare dud ide Yala ide adru yenu ilde iro feel. Yargu helang illa bidang ilde iro feel. Istella agbek adre nam Manju Anna na madve antha goth aythu. Manju avr Anna na madve ide antha kuda 2 Dina hinde helida ast kalnanmaga nam Manja. Nangu environment change bek ithu. 3 jana nu rathro rathri oor bitvi. Nam Manjana ooru Virajpet… Nan rain gu heavy connection ansuthe avthu male (rain) bartha ithu. Madve mantapa ge direct entry kotvi. Wish madana antha stage mele hathude… “Congra…” Antha heluvagle nan mathu ninth hoythu… Nodudre adu Alisha. Ond nimsha nu ali nilak aglilla hall ache bandu… I read the board ‘Madhavan Weds Alisha’. Rain gu nangu heavy connection… Avlna meet madaglu rain ithu… propose madaglu rain ithu…ega nan kanner Kan bardu antha nu avath male (rain) aythu ansuthe.

Yar helid in rain R stands for romantic antha? Actually R should be replaced with P in rain…

I was a chapter in her book called ‘LOVE…’ she turned the pages

While she was the title of my Book… I burnt the book

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Anjana Vijay https://instagram.com/anjana_vijay?utm_medium=copy_link

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S S SRUJAN GOWDA https://instagram.com/user__not._.available?utm_medium=copy_link